So since I wrote. It has been pretty good until today. But Wednesday was the fourth I felt your prayers. I went to a cafe to study and then prayed in the cathedral which by the way was not nearly as pretty as Leon´s but quiet and worshipful. The time with God was a blessing because it was worshipful there it was nice to be able to sit in God´s presence. I have learned that if I don´t have time with God my days here are worse than they normal. Anyway I appreciate your prayers.
On Thursday after class i went to Fuentes Georginas a hot springs. It was really nice there. it was a break from here. I only went with two other people which was nice to not be in this wierd group of people. Lets just admit it. It is a wierd group of people. People are in groups and travelling solo. They are from all different views. They are fun to a point but their defintion of fun may not be mine. I enjoy there company but have not met someone that I have that bond with. Which honestly is fine The girl I went with to Fuentes Geoginas is a seminary student. She is really cool. I enjoy her she is a seventh day advetnist and loves her faith. She is going to have Dianna Warden´s job in a church in California. She is probably the only one so far that I feel any connection with. I am glad I went with her. The pictures are good especially on the road up and down from the pools. We got to stand up in the back of a pickup and feel the cool breeze. Oh it was beautiful. We went with her cousin who was visiting. He is about to start his phd in bio physics. He is only nineteen. A fascinating guy.
However staying out all day posed a problem. i didn´t do my homework in a timely manner. So i tried to do it at night. Well my one and only pen died so I decided to wake up early to do it with a marker from the hygiene trunk (which most people think I really brought that much clothes) To bad my suitcase has hygiene stuff too so really I brought much less than they think. It is very interesting to see people´s reaction to the trunk because who actually travels with a huge trunk. Anyway since I was exhausted and spanish is hard for me i made too many errors. I think sometimes my dyslexia gets in the way and I get soooo frustrated with it especially since it doesn´t show up as much with teaching math. So the way my teacher grades is frustrating.
Today
i woke up early did my homework very half heartedly. Probably should have said ahh well I was out all day the day before and left it undone but determined to be good I did it. I went to take a shower (noone is ever in the shower at this point) and some one was there and taking thier time. So I ate breakfast it wasn´t something that I particularly enjoy (microwaved plantains). So started out tired frustrated ready to leave Xela. I think I just want to leave. It is not home like Nicaragua. It is not comfortable. My house is not comfortable. (they talk really loud to everyone not just those who struggle with the language- everyone).
i went to school. My teacher whips out worksheets. At this point I think if I wanted worksheets I could have grabbed four levels of them from school and toured during my breaks. The exhaustion of the day the frustration with my teacher the frustration with my house I started to tear up. I left. I don´t do that. But I did. I feel pretty stupid and a bit frustrtated. I don´t feel like I am getting a better education than what Lydia and my 501 verbs book were giving me and she isn´t trained and I got to play with David when she helped me. I also genuinely enjoy her company (richardsons if you read this i really have been blessed by you this year). So that is the rough part. Really not the end of the world. I have a weekend to rest and prepare for a new teacher.
Good part of the day. I got a phone it was like 45 dollars with 100 minutes or so to the US and I can add more as I go. That wasn´t even the cheapest phone possible. They were out of those. I just wanted a phone so I spent 7 bucks extra. After that I called Jenny a friend mine from the US sister and she invited me to spend the night on Saturday and go to church with her. I am looking forward to it :) It will be nice to get away from my family.
I made reservations for a hotel in Antigua for Thursday July 12 and things are coming together for that
. I am ready to see living water again. I am nervous about meeting a whole new team and the work involved with them. I am excited about meeting a new community.
IF you can remember. Pray for unity within the team. Pray for bonding between communities. Pray that everyone will be safe. Pray for safety in travel. Praise God that he is so big and generous and loving. Praise him for taking care of me and of things so far. PRay the gospel will be known especially in the community that we go to. Pray that they will except the hygiene and the well and the hygiene will help them to become healthier. Pray that we will be able to bond with the women of the community.
Also pray for abangasca sur. see Jorge blog for detailed pray requests. He said it better than me. Pray for Jorge adn his family as they get ready for a new team in a week or two. That his sons will adjust to having saying goodbye to people more often than they like. Pray for my heart because I desparately want to return to nicaragua. If I could for several years. pray for guidance and trust and joy in my frustrations.
I don´t know if I have more now.